fear of making frens.

hello everyone... update again. but not with interesting stories this time. =(
kinda tired here. the same routine again. yet, im not so excited about maths yet. feels like not eager to touch or even look at the books. dull perhaps. i hate to wait, hate to delay. but thats one of my habits. i should like to delay. so i will not delay anymore. haha... what kind of theory ??
kinda frustrated or disappointed with my surrounding sometimes. i still feel kinda weird living in a mix gender society. why are people make frens by caring about their looks at the first place. to me, everyone can be a fren of mine, but not those who are just using me. i dont know who's the real one. and i am getting more fear than ever to make friends. KMM is a small college, but yet i do not have the guts. =(( perhaps, i am not good in making the first move. T_T

pspm1 just around the corner.

i've been thinking for a long time... wat really happen to me this year ?
i can say that not much things went on smoothly..as wat i wanted to be.
i tried to move on, but i feel that i have lost the strength and the confidence to do everything.
i nearly gave up in everything. but i know i cant.
i'm working on it... i'm trying... but somehow i need really more rest.
but without sacrificing something, without the determination how could i continue to achieve my dreams. can anyone really give me words of wisdom ?
i need friends. everyone one of them. i am nearly dropping out in my studies.
i try to be independent, but the more i am alone, the more i feel depressed.
really hope that i can score good grades in this coming exam.
i dont wanna disappoint my family.
no matter how pressured i am.
i hope i can make it. and stop being lazy and emotional.
it deteriorates me. :(

先苦后甜

没什么事情都顺其自然的
而是经过无数的付出换回来de

sunday.

yea... at my aunt's house again..
hee.. wasted time for not studying..
why am i feeling lazier and lazier than ever... huh...
went to giant and bought some stuffs... hehe... FOOD. :D
busy finding songs and movies...although only one month more to PSPM!! omg...

sometimes kinda hate to be a girl, damn emotional... hmm... good thing or bad ?? ....make me feel moody all day long... bu shuang... :((
i wanna study !! i dun wanna get affected by my emotions, by my mood swings.. huh... i wanna chase my dreams.. i dun wanna watch my parents working so hard for me, yet i waste it all.
WAKE UP !!!! someone please wake me up.
XD

too boring.. visit my bloggie.. haha..
just too free to write on something..
HEY EVERYONE, ADD OIL for our future ya !!
NO PAIN, NO GAIN... (unless your family or parents able to support you for whole lifetime )

when we gain something, we lose something,
when we lose something, we will gain back something.
everything is equal.

you can admire others' beauty, and appreciate your own at the same time too.

just some pics

DAWKS !!!!!

my dog.

.... haha... here's my doggie.. her look damn wu nai... hahaha..

truth.

hmm.. have anyone realise something ??

one will never ever know the truth about something,
and things that u know are not actually the truth sometimes...

agree ?

my fren says this is all about what will happen in life, in this very "true" society... i guess, she's right.
whatever happen to be seen by us sometimes is not really wat the real thing happen in life...
and wat we can see... is the truth....
and its normally the good side.